is it okey to like some1 else's BF?? what if he is trying to flirt with me??

personally i was totally against this kinda thing.. but i have never imagined that it'd happen to me.. of course i like him a lot.. but he told me that he has a GF.. and yet he still talks to me..

what makes me feel burdened the most is that he stares at me like he is hypnosized...

i can't believe nothing happened during ma stay in here.. i should've had FUN.. well i have to admit i was wierd on one thing. i kinda dumped him. he was good looking and nice guy.. but i have too many requirements...goshhhhh

Haven't written in ma xanga for yrs....it's been real long.. i started another blog in ma language.. mostly i write ma thoughts about soceity in there.. coz' here i talk about everything.. and some of ma frenz ask about ma blog.. but i don't want them to read ma sloppy diary about everything in the world..lolz..

right now i'm in ma country.. i can't believe that time goes this fast. it's been already a month since i came here.. now i have only 2 weeks left.. i don't wanna go.. but what can i do?? it'll be even sadder if i don't go... i will just calm myself and not think about ma job stress.....

i traveled a lot in here. i camped alot.. since i tanned super lotz, i'm very dark skinned now.. veryy.. lol.

here is a pic of ma travel.. very beautiful...^_^b

Well, i got everything in control. Meaning: i stopped my contact with HIM. so no more BF...lol. we just stopped talking to each other..and i don't wanna go after him nor i don't wanna get hurt.. it's better if i leave first.. yeah..."sigh". Marylin Monroe once said:

 i think it's kinda true..lol.

i just updated my Xanga. it's kinda coool now...hehe. i updated my hi5, too. all girly styles..lol.

Spring is here and love is in the air. and i think i fell in love with someone i have never seen close in my life. we have been online Bf and Gf almost for a month...and yesterday i dreamt about him. and we even kissed....lol. i know he has only one thing in his mind..he even asked me indirectly...i just changed the subject then. anyways i miss him.. i miss him so bad that i felt heartache today at work. i sneaked in his email and saw emails from his previous lover. i felt so bad. they were so close... goshhhh. what am i need to do????? i am bad......... but still i can't control my emotions. i think about him and wonder if he will still like me after he sees me in real life. is he gonna cry after me as he did to his EX? so many questions are on mind, can;t get'em off of my head. i'm tired of being alone. i need someone by my side.